Sunday in Penang

Well , Sunday in Penang started kinda bad...I decided to go church yesterday and this morning I refused. I said it was because I was tired but actually it wasn't...I didn't want to go because I was lazy. My sister started nagging at me telling me about all the bible verses I have studied in and now I am going to abandoned God ?? I t kinda made me think and after she went out I felt that God is pushing me to go , then I decided to go because of Him and I don't want the devil to take control of me. So I went and it was ok....I do miss Agape though..hehe. But I really thank God for pushing me to go , if not it would be a dissapointment.

Penang here I come !!

Wohhoo !! Another few more days and "MERDEKA !!!" for two weeks !!!!

I sure need a break from school and homework ... and the fun part of the holidays.. PENANG , KIDZ SAFARI 2 AND CAMERON HIGHLANDS (maybe) !!!!!!

Wow... its almost June and I wonder who's birthday is on 6th of June...?? Oh well , its just a normal day on a normal month with kidz safari only on my schedule.. hehe. Moving on , I can't wait for Penang with all the delicious fooooooooodddddd and amazing .... err....Queens Mall ???

haha.. well....adios people on the 30th of June..enjoy yourselves in Seremban !!!

And most of all.... miss the Chongs !!!!! lol . 

GAHH !!!!!

Have you ever felt how it was like to be walking on a long road...a long way ahead of you...

to be walking alone with no one to talk to and you are just tired and drained out of all that walking. Have you ever felt empty but not know why ? Felt something is trapping you but not know what ? Feel that you want to get out of that but don't know how ?

I've tried so many things , i've talked to God but why am I still like this ? Why can't I feel His Presence and the heart for Him ? My heart has turned cold and solid rock and yet nothing happens...and it sucks to not feel Him in this times and it sucks to feel empty and nothing..! Gahh!!!!

The road is so long but I do not know when it will stop....I am dry...when am I gonna be filled ??

I am asking...why am I still dry and empty ???

Am I NOT  good enough ??

The girl I knew...

There was a girl i know , she is going through a mountain . Well , the thing is that she doesn't know what she is going through and she wants to ask God for help and she wants His touch and Presence but the thing is ....she can't. She tried hard , seek for Him but now she doesn't know wether is she not trying hard enough or what..

She tried worshipping but something is in between , she tried praying but couldn't feel anything. She feels empty , she doesn't even know wether she is dry or not !! She lost who she was and whatever relationship she had before with God is now gone..poof ! She misses the times when she was so faithful to Him that she wanted more and more.... she was burning like never before..!!

She kinda gave up but she still worships Him to feel His embrace... but there is nothing. Sometimes she wonders wether is God is still there with her or not... she felt alone and needed something or someone...

She searched for the right person to tell this to and she found none but me.. she came to me crying desperately to seek a way out , her spirit is desperate but her body is weak... She wants to get rid of that ''wall" and walk through it victoriously... but the thing is .. she doesn't know what it is... the wall has been there for a long time... 

And she is there , trap , with razors and huge rocks around her and she feels alone and needed someone to help but no one came...

Until now she is stuck there... waiting for a person to past by to give her a hand. She feels empty , she feels dirty and she feels NOTHING. And that girl is .... me.

Happy Teacher's Day

You teach me 

You mould me

You told me who I was to be

You love me

You guide me

Now , my hopes and dreams

bloomed like an oak tree

I love you !

What a girl wants...

Walking in the park holding the phone

Thinking abut him and him alone

Wondering if I've made a move and did y part

Would I be able to capture his heart?

Being so lost in my own wonderland

I've not realised that he was already holding my hand

Looking down , his skin is touching mine

Leaving everything else except him in my mind

His perfect face smiling at me

As if I was the one and only thing he need

Not realising that my face was in a blush

He gently brush my cheeks with his soft touch

In so many years , I thought he took it as a joke

Now , this amazing scene lightens my yoke

Used to think of him as my prince charming

Now , his eyes locked with mine..

as if it is never-ending

Slowly he put his face closer to mine

I frozed as if there was a stop in time

Gently , his lips met mine

This memory will I never leave behind..

tough trials..

Depression and sorrows feels me rapidly

Joy and happiness are no longer found in me

All this pressure is filling up my space

The tears I shed now no longer made me amaze

Finding myself at the end of the rope

Thinking I would no longer have any hope

Then an extraodinary light shone from above

I saw Him looking down at me with love

He offered me a hand with a friendly smile

I placed mine in his and we flew to heaven's aisle

He walked with me all around heaven 

And told me to forget my worries and count the blessings given

Questions and worries still kept gazing through my mind

He took my hand and told me everything would turn out fine

His soft touch just melts my heart

as He keeps calling me His precious art

Tears of joy welled up my eyes

He told me to trust in Him and through my trials 

I will surely rise

How could my pain be compared to His' on the cross

And for my sake , His life was a loss

Three days later , He rose again

And came back with hell's broken chain

And now , He , my Saviour is standing in front of me

By His grace and through my faith , I have been set free..

Life is a journey

Life is a journey

Not a destiny , 

It never ends

It never stops

There is nothing to do 

But to finish what was started

And then , 

Life goes on

There will be obstacles

There will be crossroads

All along the way

as high as the mountains , 

as deep as the depths of the ocean

No matter what

We have to overcome it everyday

And till then , 

Life still goes on..

Life

Life...what comes to your mind when this word pops up ? Is it a destiny , fun , ...??

Have you ever heard of this phrase "Live life to the fullest " ?

Well , yes we should live life to the fullest....but have you ever wonder why are you even here ? Wonder what is the purpose of you living? Getting so fustrated around you that you actually forget your purpose of living?

Well....let me tell you this..Life is a journey that never ends until you die.You are here because God made you to be here. You live because of Him and for Him. Yes...there are ups and downs in lives , but God made them because He knows you can go through it... You know..what I think is that sometimes we are fustrated or stress is maybe because we are self-pitying or always putting the blame and burden on ourselves.

Why want to put ourselves in a stressful position when you can just talk to God about it....be honest with Him and He will grant the desires of your heart. All this things are to let us grow up and it actually draw us closer to God..

So , what will you do if you are in a pit where no one else is in there but you ad it is all dark ? What is your next move ?

What is love ?

What the world thinks...??

#a strong positive emotion of regard and affection; "his love for his work"; "children need a lot of love"
#any object of warm affection or devotion; "the theater was her first love"; "he has a passion for cock fighting";
#have a great affection or liking for; "I love French food"; "She loves her boss and works hard for him"
#beloved: a beloved person; used as terms of endearment
#get pleasure from; "I love cooking"
#a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction; "their love left them indifferent to their surroundings"; "she was his first love"
#be enamored or in love with; "She loves her husband deeply"
#a score of zero in tennis or squash; "it was 40 love"
#sleep together: have sexual intercourse with; "This student sleeps with everyone in her dorm"; "Adam knew Eve"; "Were you ever
intimate with this man?"
#sexual love: sexual activities (often including sexual intercourse) between two people; "his lovemaking disgusted her"; "he hadn't
had any love in months"; "he has a very complicated love life"


What God said about love...??

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.For we know in part and we prophesy in part,but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.