Friday, November 27, 2009

Awesome songs.

Life.Hope.Love.

Whitney Houston = Million dollar bill 
                               = I look to you 

Love her to the max man. Awesome vocalist and songs. Hope you all like it to =) .

Justin Bieber


Check out this dude's songs. He kinda looks like a girl but never mind that. Haha. Quite ok but it made me addicted. =D

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Life.Hope.Love.

I want to dedicate this song to a friend of mine. I hope you like it. It is "Footprints in the sand" by Leona Lewis.


You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much I no along the way
Then I heard you say
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I
Been so afraid ooh
And just when I
Have thought I've lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say
I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I no you'll be there
And I can feel you
When you say

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Life.Hope.Love.

There it was. My rose-pink silk ribbon in Stefan's dresser. I knew he cared for me. I heard footsteps walking up towards the room. I quickly placed the ribbon back into the dresser and closed it. His emerald eyes are now as dark as the darkest night. My heart ached looking at those eyes. Something had been bothering him but I just can't figure out what. That deep sense of hurt and betrayal. Hold on ! Why am I thinking of him anyway? I barely even know him. But he is so different than any other guy that I've known. That is what makes him attractive.

    "Here" said Stefan handing me a lime green towel without even looking at me. " Go wash up and I'll take you home."
      What is wrong with him? From the first day of school he has been giving me the cold shoulder. What is his problem anyway? I can't believe I am gonna ask this question but I just gotta know the truth.
    " Why do you hate me so much? " I said.I just looked into his eyes without any hesitation. I've got to know this once and for all.
    "What? I don't hate you Elena. I can't- "
     Ignoring him , I continued " You have been giving me the cold shoulder since like the first day of school.I mean , you made me look like a total jerk and a laughing stock out there. What is wrong with you , Stefan? Just answer this one question and I will not bother you again." There ! I finally said it. I could feel myself breathing so hard against my chest.
   "Elena , I don't hate you. It's just that- " He looked away from me as if he couldn't tell me why. " I have my own reasons but just trust me in this. I don't hate you."
    He took a few steps towards me till his face was inches from mine. Those emerald eyes was all I was looking at. It was as if they drowned me in them or something. Slowly , he bent down and his lips met mine. At first I just stood there but then mine began to part against his. I could feel myself heating up.
It was definitely the best kiss I've ever had and always will.
Life.Hope.Love.

Sometimes  I wonder , what I do does it really matter ? I mean , studies and everything. It's all just meaningless , don't you think ? I care so much about what I will get in my exams that I don't rely on God anymore. When I don't get the marks that I want , I become angry with God for not answering me. But why do I care that much anyway ? It's so meaningless. It does not satisfy me enough. That satisfaction is only for a moment or two. Later , it will be gone as the wind. Leaving that person yearning for more , for something that can satisfy that thirsty and hungry soul. Something worthwhile. People always say that God is just a prayer away , I believe that. I really do. It's just that .... I don't know. It's like I want to reach Him but I don't have that faith ,that strength. And it sucks you know. To want to talk to Him like a child talking to her Father , but can't. All I really want is to just get away from this place and back to Him. From this emptiness that is in me. All I feel is hollowness , something hindering me from seeing Him. Gah !

And it all comes down to one question. God , if you knew that every time I sin , You feel hurt. Then , why do You still love me? When I sin , it cuts through Your heart but yet You stood right there beside me and guided me through although I've pushed You away. I can't understand !!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Life.Hope.Love.

Hmm.... me and you? When is the best time placing that in sentence?

Dear diary..

Life.Hope.Love.

Dear diary , 
            I am so excited ! Today is Valentine's Day and everyone around me has their own plans ,  including Jane and Austin (my best friends). Well , I on the other hand have got nothing to do. It's actually my fault that I don't have a date for Valentine's Day. If it wasn't because of me , Damen wouldn't have left. But never mind , can't let that distract me now. *sigh* Why must I do that to him. I feel like stabbing myself with a knife !


           *Sigh* English with Mr Calugh is not fun , at all. I'm always curious about how he could actually stand this literature stuff. It's boring. As usual , I walked to my seat ignoring the glances and stares thrown at me. I mean , what is it with them anyway ? Haven't they seen someone without a date on Valentine's Day. But then again , maybe there wasn't such thing until like , now. As I walked towards my seat , I saw a bouquet of red tulips on it. Weird huh? There was a card on it and my heart leaped as it was from Damen. It says :

Happy Valentine's Day.
Thinking of you always.
    
                                     Love ,
                                            Damen

            Could this day get any better ? Well , got to go now. 
Signing off , 
Ever Mcfloral

Love?

Life.Hope.Love.

Dear diary , 
             I walked down the hallway today and guess who I just saw ? None other than the hottest guy in Bay View High , Damen. I mean , it's not that I like him or something , well , everyone keeps talking about him s I was curious of who this guy might be. So I took a glance to see how he looks.


           "Oh my goodness ! This guy is a real hot dude. How come I didn't notice that? "And at that moment He looked up and our eyes met. It's like everything around me just got pitch black and it's just me and him. I wanted to look away so badly but I couldn't. Its like I was cast a spell on or something. It took me all the strength in my body to just look away but I simply just can't. Well , not until Mr.Calugh , my English teacher , called my name that made me jump from my seat and stood up with eyes opened wide. Everyone , literally everyone started to burst into laughter. I am so sure that my face turned hot pink at that moment.No doubt. *sigh*


             Next time I see this guy , I so have avoid eye contact. He is dangerous and besides , all the girls would probably bash me up for falling for this dude. So , might as well avoid. That's all for today. Signing off.


Ever Mcfloral

Life.Hope.Love.

I can't think straight. There is just a mixture of feelings inside of me, sum it all up, and it all comes down to just plain old nothing.*sigh*

Ever.

Life.Hope.Love.

Hey Ever , 
          I really miss you and I'm sorry for


Ever ,
          I know you are mad but it's not my


To my dearest Ever,
          You know that I really care it's just that


Ever ,
          I'm sorry and I just want to say that I miss you. A lot. 
                           Thinking of you always.

Love,
Damen

Monday, November 9, 2009

My walk home.

Life.Hope.Love.

Every walk , every step , Daddy was there guiding me and tutoring me about the basics of life on earth. Everyday as I learn more and more , I began to love my Daddy more and more too. I can't live a day without Him ; when I was alone , He was there ; when I was down , He cheered me up ; when I felt empty and hollow , He gave me the living bread that I may not go hungry again. He held me by His right hand , walking down the dark and shadowed area . Nothing can ever compare to this amazing love.

           " Daddy , is the road really that long ? Cause I am really tired and exhausted and I wanna go back home. "

           " Don't worry. It's just right ahead and come on , I know you can hang in there. You are my lil strong girl. Come on , I'll carry you and I want to show you some marvelous things on the way back home. "

So I did climb on His back and everything He showed me was beyond marvelous , beyond extraordinary and above any beauty that is found on earth. I looked at Daddy's face and could see that He is tired and exhausted too but yet He kept carrying me. He smiled and I replied him with another smile exposing most of my teeth. Then we walked a lil further.

            " There it is my lil girl. There is our home. " I couldn't really see really clearly cause it was too bright but I knew that we are finally home.

            " WEHEE !! We are finally home , Daddy !" He put me down and held my hand as we both walk towards our home , Heaven.