Awesome songs.

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Whitney Houston = Million dollar bill 
                               = I look to you 

Love her to the max man. Awesome vocalist and songs. Hope you all like it to =) .

Justin Bieber


Check out this dude's songs. He kinda looks like a girl but never mind that. Haha. Quite ok but it made me addicted. =D

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I want to dedicate this song to a friend of mine. I hope you like it. It is "Footprints in the sand" by Leona Lewis.

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much I no along the way
Then I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I
Been so afraid ooh
And just when I
Have thought I've lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

When I'm weary
Well I no you'll be there
And I can feel you
When you say

Life.Hope.Love.

There it was. My rose-pink silk ribbon in Stefan's dresser. I knew he cared for me. I heard footsteps walking up towards the room. I quickly placed the ribbon back into the dresser and closed it. His emerald eyes are now as dark as the darkest night. My heart ached looking at those eyes. Something had been bothering him but I just can't figure out what. That deep sense of hurt and betrayal. Hold on ! Why am I thinking of him anyway? I barely even know him. But he is so different than any other guy that I've known. That is what makes him attractive.

    "Here" said Stefan handing me a lime green towel without even looking at me. " Go wash up and I'll take you home."
      What is wrong with him? From the first day of school he has been giving me the cold shoulder. What is his problem anyway? I can't believe I am gonna ask this question but I just gotta know the truth.
    " Why do you hate me so much? " I said.I just looked into his eyes without any hesitation. I've got to know this once and for all.
    "What? I don't hate you Elena. I can't- "
     Ignoring him , I continued " You have been giving me the cold shoulder since like the first day of school.I mean , you made me look like a total jerk and a laughing stock out there. What is wrong with you , Stefan? Just answer this one question and I will not bother you again." There ! I finally said it. I could feel myself breathing so hard against my chest.
   "Elena , I don't hate you. It's just that- " He looked away from me as if he couldn't tell me why. " I have my own reasons but just trust me in this. I don't hate you."
    He took a few steps towards me till his face was inches from mine. Those emerald eyes was all I was looking at. It was as if they drowned me in them or something. Slowly , he bent down and his lips met mine. At first I just stood there but then mine began to part against his. I could feel myself heating up.
It was definitely the best kiss I've ever had and always will.

Life.Hope.Love.

Sometimes  I wonder , what I do does it really matter ? I mean , studies and everything. It's all just meaningless , don't you think ? I care so much about what I will get in my exams that I don't rely on God anymore. When I don't get the marks that I want , I become angry with God for not answering me. But why do I care that much anyway ? It's so meaningless. It does not satisfy me enough. That satisfaction is only for a moment or two. Later , it will be gone as the wind. Leaving that person yearning for more , for something that can satisfy that thirsty and hungry soul. Something worthwhile. People always say that God is just a prayer away , I believe that. I really do. It's just that .... I don't know. It's like I want to reach Him but I don't have that faith ,that strength. And it sucks you know. To want to talk to Him like a child talking to her Father , but can't. All I really want is to just get away from this place and back to Him. From this emptiness that is in me. All I feel is hollowness , something hindering me from seeing Him. Gah !

And it all comes down to one question. God , if you knew that every time I sin , You feel hurt. Then , why do You still love me? When I sin , it cuts through Your heart but yet You stood right there beside me and guided me through although I've pushed You away. I can't understand !!

Life.Hope.Love.

Hmm.... me and you? When is the best time placing that in sentence?

Dear diary..

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Dear diary , 
            I am so excited ! Today is Valentine's Day and everyone around me has their own plans ,  including Jane and Austin (my best friends). Well , I on the other hand have got nothing to do. It's actually my fault that I don't have a date for Valentine's Day. If it wasn't because of me , Damen wouldn't have left. But never mind , can't let that distract me now. *sigh* Why must I do that to him. I feel like stabbing myself with a knife !


           *Sigh* English with Mr Calugh is not fun , at all. I'm always curious about how he could actually stand this literature stuff. It's boring. As usual , I walked to my seat ignoring the glances and stares thrown at me. I mean , what is it with them anyway ? Haven't they seen someone without a date on Valentine's Day. But then again , maybe there wasn't such thing until like , now. As I walked towards my seat , I saw a bouquet of red tulips on it. Weird huh? There was a card on it and my heart leaped as it was from Damen. It says :

Happy Valentine's Day.

Thinking of you always.

    

                                     Love ,

                                            Damen

            Could this day get any better ? Well , got to go now. 

Signing off , 

Ever Mcfloral

Love?

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Dear diary , 
             I walked down the hallway today and guess who I just saw ? None other than the hottest guy in Bay View High , Damen. I mean , it's not that I like him or something , well , everyone keeps talking about him s I was curious of who this guy might be. So I took a glance to see how he looks.


           "Oh my goodness ! This guy is a real hot dude. How come I didn't notice that? "And at that moment He looked up and our eyes met. It's like everything around me just got pitch black and it's just me and him. I wanted to look away so badly but I couldn't. Its like I was cast a spell on or something. It took me all the strength in my body to just look away but I simply just can't. Well , not until Mr.Calugh , my English teacher , called my name that made me jump from my seat and stood up with eyes opened wide. Everyone , literally everyone started to burst into laughter. I am so sure that my face turned hot pink at that moment.No doubt. *sigh*


             Next time I see this guy , I so have avoid eye contact. He is dangerous and besides , all the girls would probably bash me up for falling for this dude. So , might as well avoid. That's all for today. Signing off.

Ever Mcfloral

Life.Hope.Love.

I can't think straight. There is just a mixture of feelings inside of me, sum it all up, and it all comes down to just plain old nothing.*sigh*

Ever.

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Hey Ever , 
          I really miss you and I'm sorry for


Ever ,
          I know you are mad but it's not my


To my dearest Ever,
          You know that I really care it's just that


Ever ,
          I'm sorry and I just want to say that I miss you. A lot. 
                           Thinking of you always.

Love,

Damen

My walk home.

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Every walk , every step , Daddy was there guiding me and tutoring me about the basics of life on earth. Everyday as I learn more and more , I began to love my Daddy more and more too. I can't live a day without Him ; when I was alone , He was there ; when I was down , He cheered me up ; when I felt empty and hollow , He gave me the living bread that I may not go hungry again. He held me by His right hand , walking down the dark and shadowed area . Nothing can ever compare to this amazing love.

           " Daddy , is the road really that long ? Cause I am really tired and exhausted and I wanna go back home. "

           " Don't worry. It's just right ahead and come on , I know you can hang in there. You are my lil strong girl. Come on , I'll carry you and I want to show you some marvelous things on the way back home. "

So I did climb on His back and everything He showed me was beyond marvelous , beyond extraordinary and above any beauty that is found on earth. I looked at Daddy's face and could see that He is tired and exhausted too but yet He kept carrying me. He smiled and I replied him with another smile exposing most of my teeth. Then we walked a lil further.

            " There it is my lil girl. There is our home. " I couldn't really see really clearly cause it was too bright but I knew that we are finally home.

            " WEHEE !! We are finally home , Daddy !" He put me down and held my hand as we both walk towards our home , Heaven.

Red tulips.

Life.Hope.Love.

I am falling head over heels with red tulips. It's so beautiful and if I ever want someone to give me flowers , I would suggest red tulips. Wonder why ? Cause it represents undying love. But that's besides the point. Haha.

In between.

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Have I crossed the line ? I actually don't know. Found out something I was curious for so long and it really changed my perspective. But what kept bothering me was , have I crossed the line between rejection and acceptance ? I really don't know. It is so hard to know which side I rather cross cause both are like magnetic force pulling you towards them. You get what I mean , don't you ? *sigh* Well , that just leaves me in between.

Elizabeth Chandler.

Life.Hope.Love.

I can't wait for May 2010 !!!! You know why ? Cause the new Dark Secrets 2 is coming outt !!!! I am like a ticking bomb waiting for that until I actually burst with joy when it is published...=DD !

Evermore.

Life.Hope.Love.

Oooo .. Michelle just borrowed me this book titled "Evermore" and it was awesome ! It's like when I was reading it there were a mixture of feelings and it just ... you know , extraordinary. It talks about a girl name Y and a very , extremely hot guy , X. It's like he  is extremely good in everything such as cooking , arts , literature and etc. That's because he has been wandering on earth like six hundred years. Seriously it is awesome.

Doomsday !

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I had a bad week. My results are not what I expected but what can I do ? *sigh* I just have to trust in God cause that is the one and only thing I can do . What would I do without Him anyway .. >.< . Just pray that I won't flunk any other subjects... please.

Happy birthday to the one and only..... CHRISTOPHER CHAN !!!

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This is a person that never stops smiling .... haha. Actually , I don't know , this guy is one full of surprises. But what I really know is that todays is his special dee-doob birthday ! Haha... Happy 14th Birthday freak !!! You're only 14 once so enjoy the next two months ... ;) .

Once broken , now restored.

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Once broken , now restored.
Took the wrong road , got to move on
Never turning back because this road led me to my Saviour
And it was there I fell in love with Him
Oh this amazing love surrounds my heart
Nothing in this whole world could ever tear us apart.
Daddy , I love you.

You held me.

Life.Hope.Love.

I was going through something that I really hate going through and what I was thinking that time was why was God putting me in a situation I am not ready to bear yet. This time He really went overboard. But that was before. What happened really taught me something that I've learn again and again in Sunday School , the power of the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. It opened my eyes cause it really has power and authority. I asked God out of all the people in the world why me to face this. But He has greater plans although He works in mysterious ways and sometimes ways that I can't accept . But over all the outcome is amazing and victorious.

God is not as bad as you think He is. Yes , there are times that you can't feel Him but have you ever thought that life is not always about feeling , it's about believing and knowing. You don't wait to get a touch from God and etc. You know and believe that His presence is there and know that He is sovereign.

I always felt that God is pushing me for something but what I got was not what I expected. But still , I was able to overcome it. Now , He is still pushing for what is ahead of this road. And till then , LOVE HIM WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND ONCE YOU KNOW HIM , THERE IS NO TURNING BACK !

What if.

Life.Hope.Love.

What if the world is going to end today? What if a family member of yours had just passed away? What if the person I loved so much passed away and I couldn't even tell her for the last time that I care for her? What if ?

So often we will "What if...."
But when will we actually realise that that 'what ifs' could actually come true and what will our reaction be?
Will we blame God ? Will we blame ourselves and regret the rest of our lives? Well , that depends on how ready your spirit is for whatever that is striving ahead of you.

Look away.

Life.Hope.Love.

I liked this guy once when I was in high school. But everytime I looked at him , all I want to do is look away. It's not that I am stalking him or something , it's just that I don't like myself liking him. He is like the guy of every girl's dreams and I am just a normal freaky girl. I think he doesn't even know that I exist !

After a hard game of volleyball , man am i sweating the fluid out of me or what. I went to my locker to get some stuff before heading towards the washroom , and there I saw him .... making out with another girl , who is like the most popular girl in school. At that time all I want to do was look away but how could I ? It took me all the strength I had to just look away and all that is inside me was pain so painful that i was trembling all the way home. All I prayed was "God , please take away this pain in me. I don't want to feel this way , it hurts to even think about it. God , please."

The next day was harder for me to not think about cause everyone in the whole school , literally everyone and everywhere I go , people are talking about that incident. Well , who could resist talking about it anyway? The hottest guy in school making out with THE hottest girl in school. It's like the perfect match or something. Then he walking down the hallway ,, like every other day all the girls start falling head over heels for him and starts being jealous towards the girl whom he maked out the day before for having him. It was like she stole the most expensive jewellery from them or something. But as usual , I just open my locker and just act as if I was looking for something that was missing. Because all I want to do back then was to just look away.

Everyday makes it harder for me not to think about it cause its everyday they will be making out , wether it is at the water fountain or at his locker. And as usual , all the girls that walk pass them would just stare disgusted at the girl and her only. But again I look away cause I know that when I actually watch them , I would stare at them all day and people would start laughing at me cause they will know that I like him. Hello?? Who will not laugh knowing that a girl like me likes THE hottest guy in school. So , all I did was look away.

To push that hurt so that I will not feel it , I looked away.

Daddy , I'm scared.

Life.Hope.Love.

Whenever I feel scared I would run to my dad.No doubt.In the middle of the night , I would knock lightly on his' room door with my red-brownish bear in my right hand. Slightly pushing the door forward and walking slowly to daddy's bed and climbed up and gave a slight push to daddy. His eyes were tired but opened slowly a I stared at him with fear.
                "Daddy , I am scared. I had a bad dream that you would leave me when I am sleeping." Tears started to roll down my cheeks as those words came out.
                "Nonsense. Why would I leave you? You are my little sweetie pie."He carried me towards him and started to tickle me like always especially whenever I am scared or sad. I laughed my usual cheeky laugh. This is why daddy never fails me whenever I run to him when I have problems.

Years past by in a blink of an eye and I had just turned 16 a few days back. I know you will think that I am still childish going to my dad for my problems but hey , whenever I fail he never fails me. I remember that time when I was having trouble with my relationship with Malenie , my best friend.
               "Daddy , I'm scared. What if I actually loose Malenie? She is all I have in school , dad. She is the one I go to whenever I have school problems. Daddy , I really love her and I don't want to loose her."I started broke down and cry.
               "Daddy , I don't know what to do."I was so confused and feared so much that that pain in me was beyond hurt. Tears were like pouring out from me everyday.
               "My child , don't be sad. You know that this is just a phase of life. Be strong and keep running. Daddy's girl is a strong and brave girl. The girl who will bring strength to others and hope to the weak."

These are the words I have kept in my heart for all these years and everyday my daddy tells me more.Do you know why ? Because my daddy is my Daddy that is in Heaven.

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY JESS !!!!!

Life.Hope.Love.

It's someone's birthday today and that someone sleeps beside me everyday of my life. haha... Happy Birthday to my awesomess sis , Jessamine chong !!!
haha
hope you enjoyed your birthday ..=)
love you loads darls !

If you could only see what is in front of you.

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I saw him in the corridor.
I wanted to say hi but was afraid to.
Look at that sweet smile and those cute dimples.
Those hazel brown eyes.
Oh gracious !
He is turning this way.. I turned around and was dumbly flipping through my Chemistry textbook
All those words were like flashing images..
He is walking this way... goodness... my heart is beating like a typhoon!
I turned with my back facing him and started walking down the hallway as fast as I can
I was basically running down the hallway and my books started to fall one by one
"Gah ! Why now ?! " I told myself
I could feel the stares on me now and never in my whole life , I feel like a huge tomato
Picking those books up and rushed down my old Toyota that I've got for my 16th birthday
"Pheww... that was so scary ! "
Then I heard a knock on my fogged up glass window
I rolled them down and ... GOODNESS !
IT'S HIM .... with my Chemistry book ?
"Hey,you dropped this down the hallway. "
"Th-th-th..."
"Thank you? No prob."
I just stared there like a dumb 5th grader
"Erm... okay then. Catch you later.... Lisa right? "
I nodded.What else could I do? Make a fool out of myself again?
Look at those dimples again. Boy am I crazy or what?
He smiled and waved while I just smiled back there like a fool.
If only you know how I feel about you and what is in front of you.

Neither hot nor cold.

Life.Hope.Love.


So scary right that sometime you are just neither hot nor cold. Hahaha... whenever I find myself that way I am quite scared that I will stay that way.In the bible is like God said that He rather let us be hot or cold then be luke-warms .... scary la dei ! Sometimes I need God to just give me a push to step out of luke-warmness... a push hard enough to make me realize where I am in life. Haih... can't wait to actually go back to Him and away from all this... =D

Grow !

Life.Hope.Love.

Today Szet Anne was taking about growth , individual and Aspirers growth . Erm .... during worship they had a slide show on titled "A Call To Anguish " and what really spoke to me "...was revival will not come unless we are anguish , broken..." . And what really came to me was like , to be honest , sometimes I am afraid to be broken. I knew that if I follow God , I will be broken and I am scared of that. But what I learned today is that I don't have to be scared cause God is with me , I mean I have heard this so many times but yet it is true .

I am an only Christian in my class and sometimes when people ask me about Christianity , I would chicken out.Seriously. Sometimes I am scared cause I am alone but another thing i learn today is I NEED to learn to be Andrew and not Phillip . Jesus told Peter to get some food cause the people ( around 2000 men) were hungry . Peter was like " But Master , it is impossible to feed all these men " and Andrew came in bringing the food just as Jesus had ask. We have to have faith even though You do not know what God's plan is. And to go through this , I need to have the prinsip , " Though none go with me , I will still follow. " Without this , we will fall apart.

Friends

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Hmm.... I don't know about you but sometimes friends is all I have to keep me going besides God.. =D . Let me name you some ... haha .

1.Becky = She goes high with me especially when she is in the car with me , aunt Hazel and unc Bernard .
                  Loving friend and always laughs like a kuku case .. =)

2.Ale    = Smiles like everyday of her life and is a caring person . Always careful with people's feelings and         is always there for the people she loves

3.Anne = An amazing inspirational leader with a loving heart who is always there to catch you when you fall . At times she is just so like a mom to the Chongs .

4.Jian =  LAMEST PERSON ON EARTH ! Seriously , but always lend an ear when it comes to problems.Haha...have I told you that he is quite sampat ?? yea he is actly...=D

5. Erika = Haha ,  this girl is good at dancing , smiles always and very friendly. Once you meet her , you just can't stop smiling...hehe

6. Aaron = Wehee !!!! He can be considered as a Chong actually....I created the name 'Chongeliah' because the Chongs and Chelliahs are like a big family when we are together...=)

7. Saral = Love her till the max ... she is my darls and she loves me as much as I love her ... hehe

7.5. Darren = What can I say... this guy is as flexible as a snake mann ... Great in acting and dancing (you don't really get this often =) )

8. Angela = Haha... when we both are together .. chaos will come .. haha .

9. Larry = Gets high on chocolate like everytime without fail .. Hottie and like a billion guys chases her and of course she declines professionally >.<

10. David = Funny and gets high quite often ...haha

11. Kuhash = My sexy babe who never stops laughing and will always make my day .. =)

12. Michelle = Annoying lil brat who sits beside me in class but lovable . Would miss her on weekends .. haha

13. Serena = My lil baby who never stops smiling and always calls me Bugs bunny ... haha . Fights with her during maths class while solving a maths question... =D . LOVE HER TO BITS !

14. Low = The girl who never stops smiling and  has a good heart .

15. Su-ann = Get lame with her and got stuck with it . haha ... looks like a model , sorry , IS a model among all of us..=P

..Patience..

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What would I do without it ... I'll probably go 'kuku' by now.... haha . Having patience is so hard and sometimes irritating but you gotta have it. Patience means you are willing to give up a 'fight' that has not happened and just handle the fight calmly . Hard isn't it ? Sometimes it is just sickening for me but you got to do what's right and what is right does not mean it has to be fair . =)

Ruby's wedding...=)

RUBY , CONGRATS  !!!!!! Haha ,  I love you and always will and hope you tae the next journey of your life with your newly-wed-husband .. =D . Your wedding was awesome and you look beautiful today.. hehe and you will always look beautiful ... =)

O.o ...

"Oopsie.."

"O.o"

When you hear these words , what comes to your mind ? Probably everyone will think of trouble. Well , has anyone been 'oopsie' lately in your life? Took a wrong turn ? Or even turning your back against someone you love ?

Looking back.. I too have made so many wrong turns in my life and it sucks bad. But none of us are perfect and if we do make a wrong turn , well , GET BACK ON TRACK ! Don't stray further when you know that you have strayed far enough . The further you go , the harder it is to turn back . Whatever you do , try to stop and think before making a decision cause one step could change your life amazingly or destroy it . You have to remember that the choices you make now affects your future and others' too . Ask God today where and the reason why you have strayed , He is waiting cause He wants you to be in His embrace where nothing matters except Him . His presence is just so amazing that even you give me a billion bucks I won't trade anything for it.. and if you have felt His presence , you would too .

What would you do ?

What would you do when everyone is against you?

The world , your family and your friends against you..?

Well , to tell you the truth , I didn't know what to do until yesterday.I was just talking to God and suddenly I just told Him this " God , I really want You to be with me. Even when the world is against me I don't mind cause I know that its not just me against the world but YOU and me. "

Turning back the question at you. What would you really do? Cause for me , I just blurt out something I didn't expect to come out from my mouth and because of that I am going to hold on to that thing. Let me tell you something ... what you have with God is nothing compared to what you have in the world cause your relationship with Him worth MORE than anything .. more than gems. Trust me in this. Although I am just 14 , but believe me , God has use my life for the past two years so tremendously that even I get choked up looking back at it .

Would you want God to change you?

Cause if you do , take a step of faith.. just one lil step while HE will take a thousand.

Trust me. HE WILL .

GAWEE !!!!!!!!!

haha

just feel like saying it since it had been like forever since I came here....

lol

its good to be back.. =)

Random...

Today RKYC was awesome..!!!!! Ale , Becky , Erika and me were like the longest group...we were praying for one another and we made a promise..We are gonna pray for one another this whole week ; no matter what the cause . Hehe..

We were also sharing about all our problems and we had a lot of fun and learned a lot . We learn from one another's mistakes...that is why RKYC is always my second home.... 

..poem..

I just felt that this was what God was trying to tell me..

My children , I , 

your Father am speaking

Let me wrap you in my bubble

The bubble in which My love and joy is everlasting

I know what you are facing whether in good or trouble

For I have determine your steps 

Plan your future 

And written it down before you were even born

The scars that you have has been healed by My Son's stripes

If you feel like you could not go any further

Its ok for I am there and will always be , when you are torn

In My bubble you will seek peace 

In there you will also seek joy

And from that moment you have been released

Then , you will go around speaking of My beloved boy

My children , 

Trust in Me and I will make you bloom

From a tiny mustard seed to an oak tree very soon

 You will be like the tree planted by the waters

Your roots spread out wide across the rivers

And your leaves will nev

er fear when heat cometh

They will always be green and y

our flowers beautifully comes forth

Do not wither

Do not go dry

Do not let your heart go through a season of winter 

For even I do not want to pass you by

Do not hide yourself from Me

Don't keep hurting yourself ; for a crushed spirit who can bear?

Can you feel My breeze filling your needs...?

For right now I would like to say that this is from the One who cares...

Do you hear their cries..???

How do you heal something that is broken ?How can I medicate my heart that is swollen?

It feels like it is shattered , 

crushed and lost in the wilderness

How can anyone live in this emptiness?

Cut , 

Sliced , 

Ripped off

Screams filled the air

" Somebody help me !!!! "

" No....!!!!! "

Where are the people I love ?

Where are the people whom I trusted ?

I am left out here all alone

Left behind... 

No one seem to pass by , 

No one seem to hear these cries

It kept bleeding until a scar was formed

Everyday my eyes will get wet and tears never stops pouring down

Although I force myself to put on a smile

But do you know...

How it hurts ?

Do you understand how much it burns ?

These screamings....

The excruciating pain...

Keeps haunting me again and again

Everyday I close my eyes and count to three

Just puttin a slight hope that all these will end

God , save me

Please........

Tongue....

Confusion , 

Depression , 

Irritation , 

Emptiness , 

Disatifaction

All in one ?

Add them together equivalents to :

 0% fun , 

95% I am done

5% Oh , just shoot me with a gun !

All these could kill...

Is these really God's will?

Once the tongue strikes , 

One of these five appears , 

And when it takes a life , 

" if only-s " are too late to be heard , 

The tongue had sliced their hearts and was left abandoned

Adding to them a heavy burden

WHAT IS THIS ?

Watch your tongue

Careless words breaks souls

While useful words heals them

Busy-bee

GAH !!!!

Everything is so bertimbun-timbun la dei.....

I got like folios , kerja kursus , problems , etc....

Mann.....this past three weeks are like a jet plane with me zooming around like a mad woman !!!

Aiyoma....@@

Amazing day..

First of all I would like to thank my friends for always being there for me...I LOVE YOU !!!!

it was on the 7th of june , we had just finished drama and wanted to go out for lunch... aunt hazel and uncle bernard also were there.... they were so sweet cause they had a surprised for me...although it was a small one but it was amazing .... I had not seen it coming although Aaron kept repeating " If it wasn't because of you , I wouldn't be here..." and  I didn't really get what he meant that time... haha , normal me not getting the first time what people say... =)

they were amazing... all of them.. 

STRESS...

Haih.....this past two weeks are like crazily packed mann....I really want a break , *sigh*

Folios , activities , classes...!!!!

Up goes the hill of stress....

What can I do but trust in Him....and get His peace and joy...=)

Sunday in Penang

Well , Sunday in Penang started kinda bad...I decided to go church yesterday and this morning I refused. I said it was because I was tired but actually it wasn't...I didn't want to go because I was lazy. My sister started nagging at me telling me about all the bible verses I have studied in and now I am going to abandoned God ?? I t kinda made me think and after she went out I felt that God is pushing me to go , then I decided to go because of Him and I don't want the devil to take control of me. So I went and it was ok....I do miss Agape though..hehe. But I really thank God for pushing me to go , if not it would be a dissapointment.

Penang here I come !!

Wohhoo !! Another few more days and "MERDEKA !!!" for two weeks !!!!

I sure need a break from school and homework ... and the fun part of the holidays.. PENANG , KIDZ SAFARI 2 AND CAMERON HIGHLANDS (maybe) !!!!!!

Wow... its almost June and I wonder who's birthday is on 6th of June...?? Oh well , its just a normal day on a normal month with kidz safari only on my schedule.. hehe. Moving on , I can't wait for Penang with all the delicious fooooooooodddddd and amazing .... err....Queens Mall ???

haha.. well....adios people on the 30th of June..enjoy yourselves in Seremban !!!

And most of all.... miss the Chongs !!!!! lol . 

GAHH !!!!!

Have you ever felt how it was like to be walking on a long road...a long way ahead of you...

to be walking alone with no one to talk to and you are just tired and drained out of all that walking. Have you ever felt empty but not know why ? Felt something is trapping you but not know what ? Feel that you want to get out of that but don't know how ?

I've tried so many things , i've talked to God but why am I still like this ? Why can't I feel His Presence and the heart for Him ? My heart has turned cold and solid rock and yet nothing happens...and it sucks to not feel Him in this times and it sucks to feel empty and nothing..! Gahh!!!!

The road is so long but I do not know when it will stop....I am dry...when am I gonna be filled ??

I am asking...why am I still dry and empty ???

Am I NOT  good enough ??

The girl I knew...

There was a girl i know , she is going through a mountain . Well , the thing is that she doesn't know what she is going through and she wants to ask God for help and she wants His touch and Presence but the thing is ....she can't. She tried hard , seek for Him but now she doesn't know wether is she not trying hard enough or what..

She tried worshipping but something is in between , she tried praying but couldn't feel anything. She feels empty , she doesn't even know wether she is dry or not !! She lost who she was and whatever relationship she had before with God is now gone..poof ! She misses the times when she was so faithful to Him that she wanted more and more.... she was burning like never before..!!

She kinda gave up but she still worships Him to feel His embrace... but there is nothing. Sometimes she wonders wether is God is still there with her or not... she felt alone and needed something or someone...

She searched for the right person to tell this to and she found none but me.. she came to me crying desperately to seek a way out , her spirit is desperate but her body is weak... She wants to get rid of that ''wall" and walk through it victoriously... but the thing is .. she doesn't know what it is... the wall has been there for a long time... 

And she is there , trap , with razors and huge rocks around her and she feels alone and needed someone to help but no one came...

Until now she is stuck there... waiting for a person to past by to give her a hand. She feels empty , she feels dirty and she feels NOTHING. And that girl is .... me.

Happy Teacher's Day

You teach me 

You mould me

You told me who I was to be

You love me

You guide me

Now , my hopes and dreams

bloomed like an oak tree

I love you !

What a girl wants...

Walking in the park holding the phone

Thinking abut him and him alone

Wondering if I've made a move and did y part

Would I be able to capture his heart?

Being so lost in my own wonderland

I've not realised that he was already holding my hand

Looking down , his skin is touching mine

Leaving everything else except him in my mind

His perfect face smiling at me

As if I was the one and only thing he need

Not realising that my face was in a blush

He gently brush my cheeks with his soft touch

In so many years , I thought he took it as a joke

Now , this amazing scene lightens my yoke

Used to think of him as my prince charming

Now , his eyes locked with mine..

as if it is never-ending

Slowly he put his face closer to mine

I frozed as if there was a stop in time

Gently , his lips met mine

This memory will I never leave behind..

tough trials..

Depression and sorrows feels me rapidly

Joy and happiness are no longer found in me

All this pressure is filling up my space

The tears I shed now no longer made me amaze

Finding myself at the end of the rope

Thinking I would no longer have any hope

Then an extraodinary light shone from above

I saw Him looking down at me with love

He offered me a hand with a friendly smile

I placed mine in his and we flew to heaven's aisle

He walked with me all around heaven 

And told me to forget my worries and count the blessings given

Questions and worries still kept gazing through my mind

He took my hand and told me everything would turn out fine

His soft touch just melts my heart

as He keeps calling me His precious art

Tears of joy welled up my eyes

He told me to trust in Him and through my trials 

I will surely rise

How could my pain be compared to His' on the cross

And for my sake , His life was a loss

Three days later , He rose again

And came back with hell's broken chain

And now , He , my Saviour is standing in front of me

By His grace and through my faith , I have been set free..

Life is a journey

Life is a journey

Not a destiny , 

It never ends

It never stops

There is nothing to do 

But to finish what was started

And then , 

Life goes on

There will be obstacles

There will be crossroads

All along the way

as high as the mountains , 

as deep as the depths of the ocean

No matter what

We have to overcome it everyday

And till then , 

Life still goes on..

Life

Life...what comes to your mind when this word pops up ? Is it a destiny , fun , ...??

Have you ever heard of this phrase "Live life to the fullest " ?

Well , yes we should live life to the fullest....but have you ever wonder why are you even here ? Wonder what is the purpose of you living? Getting so fustrated around you that you actually forget your purpose of living?

Well....let me tell you this..Life is a journey that never ends until you die.You are here because God made you to be here. You live because of Him and for Him. Yes...there are ups and downs in lives , but God made them because He knows you can go through it... You know..what I think is that sometimes we are fustrated or stress is maybe because we are self-pitying or always putting the blame and burden on ourselves.

Why want to put ourselves in a stressful position when you can just talk to God about it....be honest with Him and He will grant the desires of your heart. All this things are to let us grow up and it actually draw us closer to God..

So , what will you do if you are in a pit where no one else is in there but you ad it is all dark ? What is your next move ?

What is love ?

What the world thinks...??

#a strong positive emotion of regard and affection; "his love for his work"; "children need a lot of love"
#any object of warm affection or devotion; "the theater was her first love"; "he has a passion for cock fighting";
#have a great affection or liking for; "I love French food"; "She loves her boss and works hard for him"
#beloved: a beloved person; used as terms of endearment
#get pleasure from; "I love cooking"
#a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction; "their love left them indifferent to their surroundings"; "she was his first love"
#be enamored or in love with; "She loves her husband deeply"
#a score of zero in tennis or squash; "it was 40 love"
#sleep together: have sexual intercourse with; "This student sleeps with everyone in her dorm"; "Adam knew Eve"; "Were you ever
intimate with this man?"
#sexual love: sexual activities (often including sexual intercourse) between two people; "his lovemaking disgusted her"; "he hadn't
had any love in months"; "he has a very complicated love life"


What God said about love...??

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.For we know in part and we prophesy in part,but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.